Alina Banana

2010 New Year.

2009-12-30T08:19:00.002+08:00

I cant be bothered to update this boring blog anymore. Becoming more dead than ever. What else can u expect? HAHA better off let it just die but still remembered in any way. Im gonne delete and start on a new blog on a new 2010. If that is im not laSy. Buh-bye earthling xo.

2009-12-21T19:03:00.001+08:00

i hate YOU! dont love YOU already (!!!!!!!!!!) grumpy*

New Moon CraZe!~~

2009-12-20T12:40:00.003+08:00

Can't believe im still having the New Moon craZe Ha-ha. Need to watch it badly again. Both werewolves and vampires are unresistable. I dont care if you think its not good enough of whatsoever. I like it and thats that! hehehe. And eventho my results wasn't good enuf compare to some people, i dont care anymore. I still need to live my life. Im gonne choose the path that i think is what i really want. I hope that i wont be looked down by some people that is related to me. Right now all i need is your love. Haha okey la dont want to shit here too much.

But im really going craSy about the sales that is at mango!!!!! hehe atlast bought my 2nd jeans from there and im luving it :D! I wanted another one with the zip but maybe not now. Wanne shop for long tee and biker jacket but i know i dont have $$ so i shall stop talking and instead concentrate on which path im gonne choose & also take care of my own health coz im down with a sore throat and my whole body is killing me!

Early bird catches fresh worms :#

2009-12-14T08:02:00.004+08:00

Im up at 7.30am becoz, u wont believe this. Im actually scared thinking about getting results on Friday. Can we all go back to early 2009 and study all over again? I know its impossible but i wish we could have a time machine right now. Its killing me BOOO ~ :(

Sorrrrrrryy, my mind is half awake only so i cant think properly. "Just think that later u will be watching New Moon." HandZome HairY guys ^.^

webcam~

2009-12-12T14:13:00.006+08:00

Hello !~ hehe kinda loving my new short hair but i promise, xoxo that i will keep my hair long after this. No more torturing my hair xx.
Other than that the 3D2N lil cuz sleep-over is finally over. Cant believe it is in fact tiring to take good care, feed, play with, endure with 2 huge big babies for those 2 days. But kinda missing them now. The house was abit alivex10 and whatsnot, noisier than it usually is. Hope that they'll come again :) hehe oky gonne go out and have dinner with fam now xx.

2009-12-11T22:46:00.001+08:00

WOOOO at last cut-ed my hair \m/
Okey gonne watch amazing race toddles~

happy 9th birDay

2009-12-09T23:11:00.002+08:00

Wanne wish my lil sissy a big birDay :)

Enjoy & study hard. Also please take care of your tummy! LUV U!

AftaNoon.

2009-12-09T12:22:00.003+08:00

Change another new skin again. But not satisfied (!!!!!!!!!!)
The profile part suck big time manxzxz. Enough is enough 8)! Gonne cook breakfast despite it is 12.23pm already. Calobeteh :)

pen pals <3

2009-12-09T00:18:00.002+08:00

"You never die before ah?" -My favourite sentence hehe. Nighty night. Btw whose YELLOWMAN? Sounds like a pervert to me xD

Random Dancing!~

2009-12-08T14:17:00.003+08:00

Okey lets start tagging everyone :D!

YEEE-HAAA !~

2009-12-07T22:39:00.002+08:00

Glad that ive finally change my skin after quite awhile. Sorry for the pink hehe. L♥ving it thou :) But thx to that black mamba, ive the energy to change this skin but prolly i wont blog often. And still, the profile part is boring like forever. Gonne change it tmr, k. Shud stop now, gonne twitter and then hit the sack.

P/S: L♥ve you for still viewing this blog :D!

3D2N chalet at aloha loyang w chalet

2009-12-06T13:35:00.006+08:00

Pichas are not in order becoz im laSy to move it abt and im enjoying my classic magnum 8) hehe ciao!

xoxo

Novemberrrrrrr

2009-11-22T14:35:00.004+08:00

SUPERRRRR SORRRRRRRRRYY for i haven't been updating this boring blog and without saying it, its getting more boring each day. But im glad that there is still one black boy who is still returning to this link, page and have been asking me to update. So here i am, for i will fufill his wish and make him smile for awhile, oky? :)

This year holiday is indeed a long one and a fun one too. But there's still few more weeks to go before a new year begins and where good/bad things might await me/us. Not sure if im looking forward to it thou : Ok but whatever it is, everyone is sure wishing it to be a good year. Yep! So hows your holiday been?

I cant believe its going to be the end of november - soon enough. And i still haven't start working. And instead have been spending money on movies, McRonald, dvd, online shopping, and ofcoz more moviess and McRonald. Tskk. But im glad that ive met new friends which is indeed what i wish for :D! So i can't really be bothered to update this blog just thinking of the layout for my blog. I just don't have the time and energy to do so. I can't say that i'll change it soon becoz im just plain laSy.

So i'll work it out! And till here i'll be blogging. Sorry for the super short post, mr black mamba hehe ;) And i wont be updating anytime soon too okey bcoz i'll be writing in my diary from now onwards so it'll be difficult to deal w alot of "diaries" hehe. So have fun earthlings <3!

FML!

2009-11-11T18:16:00.002+08:00

FML!!(this is the 1st time im typing and using this word ever ever ever)
For u: Im sorry, for loving u.
Im sorry, im upset.
Im sorry, im sick and tired of this love.
Im sorry, im not understanding.
Im sorry, im hurting u.
Im sorry, im angry.
Im sorry, i make u angry.
Im sorry, yr sad.
Im sorry, i cant be happy.
Im sorry, i cant make u happy.
Im sorry, i cant make u understand.
Im sorry, i cant be wad u wan me to be.
Im sorry, i cant.......

And the list goes on and on.........

what can be more worse?

2009-10-30T07:50:00.002+08:00

craSy! craSy! craSy! craSy! "This is madness!"
The laptop has a nervous breakdown since yesterday night. I was terribly sad and angry. How could anyone ever do this cruel thing to the laptop, which cost so much. I still cant find the culprit bcoz before i left the house yesterday, the laptop was still in good conditioned. AHHHHHHHHHHS! I cant think more about it, i'll go bonkers. How can i ever think straight now that laptop is gone - forever. Cb dog. Ok i know i am exaggerating (i almost forgot how to spell and even better pronounce this F*king word). Oh god!

Plus without laptop, how can i ever watch anime, dramas online? And even better, i cant play farmville and cafe world bcoz my computer is teTrible. Its supaaar lagged when i played cafe world just now. And i even hate the sound of the cpu when the computer is loaded with a lot of stuffs :(( AND TO THINK ABOUT IT, I CANT WEBCAM W MY BLACK MAMBAss TILL LATE MORNING ANYMORE!!! CB! WHY MUST MY LIFE IS BE LIKE THESE?!?! WHY?!?! *calms down*

And to put it altogether, I couldnt think straight and had no enuf sleep due to the movie: paranormal activity. How could i even thought of watching the show w archana somemore! The show kept replaying in my mind, in my view. Was so teTrified until i cant sleep right now, and its only 8.20am! I still could make fun of the show, putting muruku infront of the laptop and trying to make a joke out of it. And all archana did was laughed. HA-HA! See lah! Im scared rite now! Scaredy pants! Tsk tsk tskk.

I think i shall try to convert my attention to smth funny oky. I can die if i keep thinking about that horrible show :( And bare w me, i think this blog is going to be dead for sometime - period! And pls, miss me k. Bcoz im missing the girls in schl which include fiona, ika, grace, ros, sam and then the list goes on and on and on... Ohh yuh, missing ho ching terribly: her face, her smile, her laugh, her vulgurities. Dont forget, New moon ah new moon :)) Oklah, shaddup lah Alina! Byee!

young and gay..

2009-10-28T23:22:00.004+08:00

Yoyoyoyo main yoyo *kening jogek* Aper tak klakar? Tak klakar takmo ketawe, tak sroh pon. Haha oppss sorry.

Have anyone watched The Blue Mansion? Itss a supaar hilarious local show, which is must watch. But for 2 hours in there, sitting = boredddd. Atleast it was worth my 7.50$ hehe. But heart pain, bcoz money gone lyk dat. Not working + no schling = NO MONEHHH! Still thinking shud i work anott. Tsk tsk tskk.

Anyw, have been chatting and using webcam w frens. Maklom lah, i dun really use webcam so mcm happy gitu bile gunekan. Sorry eh, lmbt seminit. Okeyyy lah, nak sambong webcamminggg, bye bye homosapiens.. Shall end w pichasss from webcamming.

C this then go to - www.cutecakes.onsugar.com

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2009-10-27T01:45:00.005+08:00

Morrniiiingg homosapiens. Its kinda, since its 1.47 am right now. Gonna head to bed soooon hehe. Have been bored to death staying at home and stuffing myself with foods. Ok not exactly foods - chocolate. And it doesnt make me full, so i'll alwayZ complaint to ayah that im hungary and he will nag nag nag at me. But when i stuff myself w chocolates, i'll feel guilty and then i'll go for a jog which is pretty good enuf for me :) So i dun think i'll be getting fatter anytime soon, lyk someone said HA-HA! And im still thinking if i shud go out and head to work? Bcoz my money wun last for long, as i'll be going shopping shopping and more shopping. AHHHHHHHss. I cant think straight. I guess i shall have an early night. hhehe. Bye~

P/S: Luv u, yesss u :)

ba ba black sheep.

2009-10-23T18:50:00.002+08:00

Holyday is getting boriing :( Spending money shopping and now its almost gone. I need a work, i want to work. But - laSy. Tskk! Bad bad bad badddd.

But i shall do smth abt it, sooner or later :) I wan to delete blogger! I wan to delete onsugar. I wan to erase all the memories i have, had. Yess, plss. Sigh~

Boriing - www.cutecakes.onsugar.com

gerekZzzZz

2009-10-17T15:05:00.005+08:00

I had fun on thursday and friday thaaaanks to the peepoS :) Hehe.

THURS,

Planned w nas to surprise fana w birthday cake as a belated gift.
The plan worked and she was really surprised hehe :)
Then we stayed at her house till 6 to watch movie, Hancock.
Afta dat went home.
Nekz, hope u lyk the cake (!!!!!)

FRI,

Planned was to stay at home coz was laSy to go out.
Wanted to slp but the nekz called and asked me out to play pool.
Was bored so i agreed.
Met nekz and bbf at clementi.
Went to the pool place but was packed.
Wanted to chill at the bowling place but then we all agreed to play bowling last min.
Had lots of fun during the game w all the laughters.
By 7 we stopped and chill near the swimming complex.
And im homed by 7.45pm.
Seriously had fun and was tire out.
Lets play another game soon :)

Okey shall go and do smth else now. Anw, HAPPY DEEPAVALII INDIAN PEEPOss hehe.

blow me away.

2009-10-14T14:08:00.003+08:00

Im back back bacck baaack backk bacckk baaackk baaaaaack :D!
Finally N lvl is over and im soooooo enjoying myself. And im glad i can continue watching dramasss online every single day hehe.

I wanna go now, itssss raining so i shall go and slp teeheheee. Update sooon :)! Babagoogoo~

Im smiling more without u now, thanks.

F1 feverrr on 25th september 2009 :)

2009-09-26T14:55:00.004+08:00

Ystrday was simply awesooomezxz :D! Im so loving F1 more. Cant believed i went and saw the real car and hear the real sound. Nearly went deaf but it was worth it. Seeeee lah, dad go and sell the tickets for today and tmr the finale :( I want to go again. Tskkk but it was superrr tiring. And was perspiring tapi seriouslyy it was all worth it. Glad neneks enjoyed it eh neks? Neneks lain kali kite kluar lagi smpai mabok minom roti G eh (inside jokes). HA-HA! Oklah. Shall end this post with the video :)) Picturess yang lain at facebook nnt i upload. (saje saje nak show off hehe)

Lebaran two-thousand-nine

2009-09-22T19:15:00.004+08:00

This year is the most boriing year i ever experienced.
Nurul's fam had to go early, so there was one fam less.
Other cousins came late.
Photos are only a few.
No families picha lyk last year.
Superrr mundane.
But the money is goood :)) Which mean can go shopping afta N.
The food is d-d-deliciousss also. (regretted for not eating as much as i can)
Seriouslyy, it was a boriing day.
Next day, Monday nvr go out with fam bcoz was simply tiredd and laSy.
Sorrry uh, pemls sikett.
Stay at home w abang.
Watched tv.
Tdo.

Today,

Went to schl feeling lethargic.
Fell aslp halfway when teacher's going through ans.
Teacher called my name, and everyone was looking.
Then the guys started to say, "raye oso wan to do 'that' w (insert name)"
Nvr go Ros house bcoz need to go home straight.
Parents was at home yey :D!
Now, blogging shait and chatting.
Ok dah. Calobeteh!

P.S: Sorry today's post not colourFooL. Not happy, not sad. Duno why. Oh btw, onsugar shall be my most random post which includes quoting?..

Selaaamatt Harii Raaaya (!!)

2009-09-19T12:51:00.004+08:00

Yey (!!!!) Blogger is back to normal (for me aje lah.) Atlast blh upload pichass and make my wordss colourFooL hehe. I think i shall use blogger back? (or stick to using onsugaaa) Susah btol nak buat pilihan, mcm penting lah sgt bende nii hehe. So anw, letsss start using blogger first since ive been blogging since pri 4/5. But a change is must more better right? Haha fickle minded lagii lah i ni.

But anw, ystrday was soo fun and relaxing. I was so glad that i went for kiamulai and terawih for the first timee? Hehe i know lah (nii budak first timerr. nak step gerek kan?) Tskk HA-HA! I felt so relax when i did terawih but felt half awake when i was praying at 3.30am. Overall, my tears didnt roll down which is thank godd for that? I didnt want to cry infront of the girls. Somethings are better left unsaid.

And since ystrday was the last day of terawih and kiamulai, i am so glad i did this before its too late. (some say its nvr too late, but u nvr know) And tmr is Hari Raya (feeling mcm ader tkde) bcoz N lvl have yet to finish. Ppl dun really know where i really wanna head to. But ive planned them. (let it just be the only one to know for now)

Ahhh penat, but i still want to go out and buy kasot raye :( But i wan to bake and clean my messy room (full of papers and bks) and put up my new langsih. (ni spell asal blh aje hehe) So its a last min thang. (lagi byk mase kau nak blog blog nii semue eh) Ya allah haha. Oklah. Shall blog again soooooon with pictures. Should be blogging here and onsugarrrr. Just look forward to it. (klau tknk, i tak pakse)

W luv, (deeeep deep, inside down.)

leave,

2009-09-10T17:16:00.000+08:00

why cant u be like the rest of the guys? so that it will be easy for me to let go and forget. but that difference makes u hu u are. still, we are all humans with feelings. wad are u feeling now?

31st august 2009

2009-09-01T10:08:00.000+08:00

I appreciated for all the wishesss and gifts that were received.
Thx for the people hu had given me surprises for the past two days.
I am really glad u all cud make small lil thang, meant so much to me.
But eventho today starts another everyday live for me,
i know i cudnt forget these day. (eventho im now having STM)
Even for when u wissh me through sms, i wont forget bcoz i know that all my live,
how hard i try to forget every lil thing about u, i cant.
I just wanna talk to u like things nvr have to end in any-way.

P.S. Im in such a deep trouble now. I just cant stop, even, when i really want to. Will u act like u duno? And u dun have to consider my feelingss so that i will stop all those feelings im having now. (if that is wad u wan)

random

2009-08-27T18:30:00.001+08:00

"My lips are drying up. Feets are cold and numb. Eyes are shutting down. While my trust for you is fading through the night."

go cutecakes.onsugar.com for further updates. u tknk yr problem.

Selamat menjalankan bulan ramadhan :D!

2009-08-22T10:19:00.000+08:00

Fyi, i am using onsugar now bcoz blogger isnt functioning that well (isit just mine or all of yours?) I TAAAAK SUKE (!!!!!!!) But u can tag me here, unless u wanna die (takde link) HA-HA! Bye cacat otaksss heh.

2009-08-17T17:18:00.000+08:00

BLOGGER MAKIN TEROK (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Im not using tumblr anymore (deleted) and using onsugaaaaar currently.
http://cutecakes.onsugar.com

MOMMY MOMMY!

2009-08-12T21:31:00.001+08:00

I NEED HELP IN CHEMISTRY AND A STUDY PARTNER (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
URGENT!!!! HELP NEEDED! AND MUST BE FREE OF CHARGE!!
CALL ME AT 8******1! OK THANK YOU :D!

HA-HA! Eh the advert not for saless eh. But seriously, i needa study partner who is good in chemistry and is patient enuf to teach me until i understand. Any kind soulsss?!

City hall + boat quay + marina square + clementi

2009-08-10T13:47:00.002+08:00

How was yr national day celebration? Ader mcm mine tak? Pegi sini sane. Merata-rata ah i dgn babies i pegi. I hate the crowded place pat city hall and marina square. Mane mane pegi je nampak orang orang yang tak perlu dilihat HA-HA! And lucky enuf we got to watch fireworks without getting squeeze or block (cume pokok yang tak perlu tu je uh) Hehe, only me and the other two knows. We was v v v v enthu, and i didnt fail to snap pichass and video of the fireworks. Only malu je ah nak upload video dier. Psl ader suara pmpn pekik yang tk perlu dlm video (paham paham kan aje eh) LOL! We was slacking, laughing, making stupid faces while waiting for the fireworks. And when there was fireworks, we kanchong spiders bcoz we wasnt aware of it. Tapi best ah :)

Afta that from boat quay, nak tak nak melayang pat marina square jugak. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE i tak suke. V the tak perlu orang orang pat sane seh. Then terjumpa mirhan, and he was insisting that i go w his frens. Abeh, kengkawan i nak letak pat mane eh? Dalam bag i pe? Mcm lain hari tak blh jumpe, padehal rmh seblah blk je kan kan kan. Tskkkkkkk! So afta that, wanted to go ion, but we were too laSy bcoz we wanted to take bus but the road was blocked. Then chillax pat clementi for awhile and then homedddddd.

Was pretty satisfied w ystrday outing and the bunga api. Make me go highh only HA-HA! Oklah, gmbr i upload at my tumblr ok. Toddlesssss :D!

:@

2009-08-09T10:57:00.000+08:00

I IS ANGRY (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
BCOZ I PUT TAGBOARD ALR THEN NO ONE TAG
U ALL WAN TAG ANOT?!?!
IF NOT I DUN WAN TO EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER PUT TAGBOARD EVER EVER EVER EVER AGAIN (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
GRRRRRRRRR (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

tumblrrrrr.

2009-08-06T16:19:00.001+08:00

Will be updating at tumblr for the meantime.
I alr upload my baby photossss.
Go c :)
www.highfivee.tumblr.com

P.S. U can tag me there.

takes time to luv.

2009-08-05T12:06:00.001+08:00

seriously, whuts wrong with blogger? eeeeeeeeeee, irritnye!!!! tak sukee. nvm ah. i update at my tumblr for the mean time. only short post there. and isit going to rain anot?!?! the weather mcm main main seh. tadi gelap, abeh terang, abeh gelap balek. cheat my feeeelingss je :(

and im glad 4/7 guys get to go finals for soccer but sad enuf that we girls cant go to the finalss. mcm biatch eh teachers. buyers sia, aper score finals? go jump down better ah. but i seriously had fun with the girls eventho we lost, u all did yr best. prolly there's next year. and so much for enjoying, right now i am feeling so much pain. power housezxz! go visit my tumblr if u wan, tak nak tak pakse pe. the link bawah u, heee.

nenek jual keropok or waddd?!

2009-07-25T10:55:00.003+08:00

Whuts with blogger?!?! This page im typing is all white. Super weird to the m.x.m!!!!! But anw, ystrday oral was teTrible. I flunk it, v nice :) Hahahha no i dun mean it that way. The reading was okeyyyy, until instead of, "makin berisi, makin rendah." I bace, "Makan berisi, makin rendah." Dengan penuh smgt tao. Then skali i realized my mistake when i was gonna read the next sentence. That time power housezxz! I wanted to laugh at myself and ran away. TEEHEHEEHE!!!! And oso the conversation, i think i ans wrongly for the 1st q then cikgu (give me the look like kau ckp aper ni? aku tanye lain kau jwb lain) I think so lah. I was so scared at my wits. Then i keep wanting to laugh at myself lahhhh. Ya Allah, knape lah hambu ini slenge sgt?!?! MUAHAHAHHHAHA! Oklah atleast its over now which i alr flunk it and cant do anything abt it. FTW!
Ohhhh afterwards when down to wait for others and was laughing with nas and arep abt nenek jual keropok, or isit makcik jual keropok? Whutever shit lah. Pecah perot tao ketawe dgn diorg.
Nas lah, he say amek sapu lidi cocok hidung nenek tu. Abeh i ckp, aku takde sapu lidi. Then nas dgn semgtness ckp, "MAM-MAM-MAMPOS KAU!" We all laugh at him bcoz he said it in a funny way. Gagap skejap eh nas. MUAHAHHAHHA! Then all the way ah we talk abt ghost. FunneH eh u all. Suke ckp part gini. Oh and there was another funneH thing happened. Whe me and the rest was walking, there was a leaf floating to the ground beside me. I shouted in shock bcoz i thot aper tao. Buat malu je. Abeh bbyg pon terpranjat bile i pekik hahahhhaha. Ok dah abes crite. Boringggg ah. Nak berak, k bye :)

2009-07-21T20:22:00.004+08:00

Blogger is being a pu^^y! But shall just type anyhow. Have been feelinggg real great. Thank god for showing me the ones i am with till today. I swear i sayang all of u bangetxzxz (with a lot of exclamation marksss plsss) hehe. Nothing can replace all of u, and ofcoz mostly it was my bestfren, and dont worry, my one and only babyg still include. Also, ham and arep (confirm korg nmpk ni!) for cheering me up when i was (well, not exactly at my lowest point) but still, it was nice of u all. (And i tell u all, nthg will ever ever ever ever ever make me feel at my lowest anymore) Bcoz i am glad, i dont have frens like that hu even @#!%^ abt their own frens. (FOR GODDAMNSAKE I AM NOT SAYING ANY NAMES HERE. BUT OH I FORGOT, YR HEART KNOWS ITS U! GREATTTT!) I havent been a @%^&* and is a kind hearted but ppl took granted of it. But its good, bcoz i have better frens hu appreciate me right now. (U know hu u all are) Damn, i think i am typing too much abt ppl that is not my concern in my own blog. Make me want to berak only. HAHAHAHHAHHA! And here's a thing for u, ("Its woman err or shud i say humansssss err to badmouth about ppl. I think its normal rite? U shud know bcoz u do that alot! And when i mean alot, IT IS SERIOUSLY ALOT! And wad i said was i dont hate. Do u understand the meaning of HATE AND BADMOUTH!??! GAWWWD! GO, GO AND CHECK THE DICTIONARY DAMNIT! Okey, enuf abt IT bcoz i dont see a need to talk abt it anymore :)

TMR GOT ECLIPSE!!!!!!! JAKON AH ABOHDEN?!?! But here's the thing, (I found it on the net)
"On Wednesday, 2009 July 22, a total eclipse of the Sun is visible from within a narrow corridor that traverses half of Earth. The path of the Moon's umbral shadow begins in India and crosses through Nepal, Bangladesh, Bhutan, Myanmar and China. After leaving mainland Asia, the path crosses Japan's Ryukyu Islands and curves southeast through the Pacific Ocean where the maximum duration of totality reaches 6 min 39 s. A partial eclipse is seen within the much broader path of the Moon's penumbral shadow, which includes most of eastern Asia, Indonesia, and the Pacific Ocean."

Its sadd that we Asians could only see partial of it. (WHY?!?! THIS DOESNT HAVE TO HAPPEN!!) HAHAHA! Which means we could not really see the darkness. But i am eager to see it for myself tmrrrr. Im exciteddd when i first knew abt the eclipse when i saw it during the jan this year. But this is diff. Oh and when i meant excited abt it, its like im excited abt the same thing when i was searching for COLBY DONALDSON pichasss on the net. He got me soooo excitedd.. Seriously his damn hotttt! Okey lah. Im done being a pu^^y here. My stomach cramp issss pissing me off. Dada.

funny when pantat ayam and me did the same reaction at the same time(:

2009-07-14T16:13:00.004+08:00

Today is momsie's birthday.

Happpy Birthday Mom =8D!

(Need to do birthday card laterrrr)

I have a new lover who died on june 25th.

no more pretends :)

2009-07-05T21:41:00.006+08:00

Im gonna summarize about the last day of school for the week till today :)) So practically..........
On Friday,

It was better than the rest of the days before bcoz it was friday means the end of weekdays.
Fantabulous FOURR attended school on that day which was moooooore fun than FUN(any words better than fun?)
Lesson ended faster than usual. And there's pantat ayam to entertain me((:
Had to write about whut im gonna pledge for.....
And i finally finished my fnn coursework :DD! My hard work all this month, really pays off. (Just hope to get better marks. Amin)
Went to singapore expo for the robinson's salesssssss. Sales is fun but almost when i tot the price wont so high, it burst. (So i need to cut down from buying things.)
By the time we pay for my things, it was already 1030pm.
Then we havent had our dinner, then dad say go west coast makan. Had roti prata with mushroom plusss egg. The food was really tasty, with the soup kambing and momsie had kway teow which was superb. Should eat there again.
Reached home at 12am. POWERRRR :D!

On Saturday,

Was watching My girl online.
Then while watching tv, fell asleep.
Actually wanted to go/accompany my lil sissy go swimming. (Okok next sat)
Watched Harry Potter. (I ketgglan zaman ah) This time, i really pay attention while watching it, really an awesoooome show which kills boredom.

Sunday, which is today,

Woke up abit early to get ready for madrasah but havent iron uni so i was late as usual.
Ustaz was nagging, or was he not?
Kept talking and laughing with Aishah and yanti.(the other 2 didnt turn up) Then ustaz keep telling me to keep quiet and threaten to put me seat infront. (But he didnt bcoz i kept saying, last chance)
Then he ask me to read out from the book and Aishah said a wrong word and my classmate laugh, so did i.
And ustaz say next week takmo lmbt, if not kene berdiri for the whole lesson. He knows i dah season slalu dtg lmbt.
Then second lesson, another ustaz was the joke for the day. He was practically acting big, and irrit. So me, Aishah and Yanty made fun of him.
Then we laugh out loud non stop for the day. We're v v v v irrit heheh.
Reached home watched My Girl again and parents went for jemputan at a restoran.
Cudnt get to see my lil cousin :((
Watched chinese show on tv and waited for momsie to come back with banditto =8D!
Bathed and went for a short jog which turns out horrible.

So is that short enuf? Hahhah oklah im done. Shall sleep early.

"I have something to say. I feel guilty for saying it. I shall type in my next post. Stay tune."

a penny for my thoughts.

2009-06-29T17:09:00.021+08:00

My internet is being sucha pu^^y right now. It takes 5 minutes to load blogger, which is really irrit! Ok i shall stop complaining and continue with whut i wanna post. Well well well, today is monday blues which means school start alr, yess..... SCHOOL! I was really looking forward to go back to school this term, to meet my bbygs ofcoz :)) heh. Nothing much happen actually but teachers was passing us the message about H1N1.

Other than that, funny part was during malay lesson. Ok i nak tanye, pernah tak orang rogol rambutan?!?! PERNAH TAK U DGR WORD ROGOL RAMBUTAN?!?! HAHHAHAHHAHHA! Instead of saying jolok rambutan, my friend said rogol rambutan. Aper lagi, satu class ketawe lah. He was the joke for the day. Awwww, so next time use this sentence. "Saya menolong (insert name sape2) rogol rambutan kerana rambutan itu sangat sedap." Hehe oklah, tak klakar for u? So whut? Klakar for me wad. Teeheheheheee.

Anw, have been wanting to type alot of things here and also upload pichas, but im just being a bz beeeee. So i wun do it now. But the pichas i upload below, means something to me. I really miss each and everyone of them and i practically dont know whut to say.

(pichas quality suck!)

I screw everything up. But practically, i didnt scold u, i didnt shout at u and i didn say a thing or two about that incident. I dun blame u. But sorry for ignoring u, i guess that is why u are not talking to me. Im to blame. Im sorry, really for ignoring u. I shudnt do that, and this is the consequences. I miss talking, laughing, fighting with u, abang. Really this time i duno wad to do, wad to say to u. I know wad i do wun mend everything up. Im trying very hard, but i miss u, abang. Wad else can i say? I wanna stop all this, but isit too late"

(sorry i dun have the courage to say sorry to u, i cant type anymore. shall stop here)

"I wont give up, no i wont break down. I'll be strong even if it goes wrong."

2009-06-25T17:34:00.000+08:00

"make the best out of everything", wad does it mean?

whut else can i say?

2009-06-22T18:42:00.005+08:00

Ohmy~ Look at that baby cousin of mine. Just ystrday meeting him, and i didnt get enough of him. Soon he'll be able to stand on his own. And then, prolly he can even run alr and talk and eat MacRonald and even scold (vulgars) hehe. But maybe not too soon. And he has a classic face there. Here's another of my baby cousin.
Coooool rite?!?!?! Omigod~ Both are super cute and adorable. There are awesoooome creatures alive. HAHAHHHA opps, creature? Hehe so random lah ni post.

Anw, ystrday was a lovely day but not for long. It turns horrible halfway :( So sadd! cannot enjoy with my cousinZ. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh so frigging hot lah! Ok here's another last picha which has the same look as, (read it aloud, this looks like ME!) hahahhhahha.
Ok buhbye.

"It seems like ive lost my way in life. Where do i head to? Whut shud i choose? Im not gonna make the same mistake. Shud i risk everything and let it go? Ive no faith in myself anymore. Why do i feel that im a burden? Im so sick from getting sick everytime and making my parents worry. I wont make it. I know my life has got nothing to do with you and i know im not to walk/take the same path as you. And you still have a life ahead of you, without me. There's gonna be that special someone, and im not looking forward to it but im not gonna avoid it either. Im gonna face it, weather the hurricane. Time fly so fast, its nearly 6 years, do u rmb? All i want is my Big Brader. Im done, maybe not. Many, more to say. But it wont end. I wanna find, "me" are u gonna accompany?"

heart on my sleeve

2009-06-16T11:14:00.002+08:00

Today is tuesday gloom. Ok mrepek. The chicken that my dad is roasting smells super d-d-delicioussssss. Soooo hungry now and verrrryy sleepy. No plans today, just movie marathon. And i am super glad that i'll be going back kampung tmrr. New environment. Ok toddles everyone. Dont feel like blogging.

"I dont wanna make the same mistake. I just wanna know one thing, just one. Have u ever miss me? Goddd, sorry for being a kid. How will i make this work? I need u to tell me. And seriously if u dont know, i miss u. Wait, do u even want to know? Hope to hear from u before i go. *amin*"

resentfool

2009-06-11T18:53:00.002+08:00

I wanna upload my babies photo and some of lil sissy's ones but I am practically laSy. I doubt u all wanna see it, but i dont care, i still wanna upload it hehe. Today had study session at je library with sam, fiona, ernest, arif and his lil sissy. (Yang extra i wont say it.) Was suppose to do geog with arep, but i ended up doing my fnn bcoz i havent finish it and the rest had done it :(! Sam was being a nice pussy, so she helped me with fnn. Im almost done now, thank god :D! Then arep was doing his geog without any problem and he already finished but mine havent. So i asked him to do for me instead((: And his lil sissy is super cute. I likey and she is a humour person :D! And she said (i was pretty) Haha *turns green like a frog* But she's really nice hehe.

Then had my late breakfast cum lunch at imm's MacRonald. Then they plan to go back to the library but i had to go home as i left lil sissy at home alone. And i am really tired right now. I dont understand why cant we sleep after Asar. Ok maybe we shouldnt. Then i had to fight my sleepiness. Due to ystrday, i didnt really get to sleep bcoz it was really hot and monsters keep popping in my mind. Hope tonight it wont pop out again.

"No. Do u regret now? :("

VitaMilk plusssss fifteeeen :D!

2009-06-09T21:15:00.003+08:00

PLUSS PLUS PLUSSSS PLUSSSSSSSS

EQUALSSSSS TO

Soooooooooo random ah. In luv with the book fifteeen, and gladly i am still fifteeeeeen :D! But im gonna finish reading it alr. Prolly by tonight, and i am addicted to reading books. This week not much plan, but movie marathon with kak ain and lil sissy at home tmr. And gosh, mirhan is going on hols tmr oso. Beban i ringan siket hehe.

And im watching Anugerah now. Hahahahhhahha part yg paling klakar when they show org yg lupe lyrics. Mcm nak tendang seh! Klakar rabak tgk reaction satu satu. And some of the guys are really hot. Teeheheee.

Wasnt satisfied with the cookies i bake today :(! So soft and was afraid mirhan wudnt like it (eventho he didnt mind) I still like the one i baked for the v first time.

Mane my bestfren hilang eh? My v and only bestfren. If u're reading this, lamer tk msg? Kan i say dah top up msg. Tkkan smpai skrg tk top up top up lagi? Dah 1 whole month. Tkkan dah tknk msg i lagi? If u still duno hu u are, nasri! Msg aku k?

Done blogging :D!

"Oh and im afraid to say i miss u. U know that, dun u?"

tweeeeeet: afraid of the dark.

2009-06-08T19:41:00.002+08:00

Wasted money on so called tuition. Wasted money on my online buys. No chalet and no going to malaysia for hols(eventho its a disgusting place *opps sorry*) And even maybe no batam.

Mendaknyee. Just bcoz momsy had to pay for my so called tuition, i felt that the money was wasted. Eventho ive met new awesome friends and learn new techniques, but now wad? And i know mom said its not wasted, but we could have use the money on smth else. I feel like i wanna work, think man think!

Ok im afraid of the dark? Haha mrepek lah. Byeeeee nak buat hwk. *mcm kental je* hehe.

lalalalala~

2009-06-08T18:22:00.004+08:00

I have a coolio animal. Perhaps it can be a cat, a kangaroo, a squirrel, a mouse, a turtle and so on so on. Hehe was just boredddd. Whut big ears u have there pussy. *roarrrr* Ok ignore mee. The weather is dot dot dot. And i feel like eating alot alot alot.

I seriously wanna shop for shoes alr. I am really tempted looking at those gorgeous shoes. Next week maybe? Kak ain, movie marathon again? Luv, Alina. Ok bye lah.

shoessssss

2009-06-05T16:19:00.004+08:00

Hello. How about beautiFooL shoes/heels/sandals/boots for u? Definitely for me :D! Im sure when kak ain sees this, she'll somehow drool :))

"Im staying put. I want to remain like before. Where are u? Contact me before i go, will u?"

sore throat.

2009-06-04T18:45:00.002+08:00

Whut? Sleepy thursday. Mom's not feeling well, something happened. I pray that she'll recover. Amin.

And i want to return like before.

I am Alina.

2009-06-03T18:00:00.000+08:00

I guess i should continue blogging. So hello everyone. Holiday are here, and here i am. Watching Ellen while eating bread with nutella plus condense milk plusss chocolate syrup and oso homemade pizza. Heavenly? I think :))

I miss blogging, and i have choose to blog again. But i wont make the same mistake again. I wont say things that i dont mean it again here. Ok so before anything, i wanna blog wad i feel and i wanna type it here. This time, i wont say things that i dun mean it, and i have thought before typing it here. So here goes....

Have u been fine lately? Its been sometime..... And i know u say that u will come back, but i dont know when. Im not complaining. U only said, "okay" when i told u how i felt. And then, all i did till today was wait. I duno why, but i feel useless cause i cant do anything. Why am i just keeping quiet? Am i a girl hu shud just keep quiet and be stupid? And thank god, i am learning to let go. But, u shud know that i am still waiting.

Ok dah abes ckp aper yg i wanna say.

pichas: town on a tuesday night :)

2009-06-03T17:36:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, malas ak upload semue gmbr

At slice, my first time :D!

Pretty girl :))

Pink dickhead for u? ^^

Black men for me :D!

New trend plus belah nonok =8D!

\m/

town on tuesday night was :))

2009-06-03T17:26:00.002+08:00

Ystrday to vivo and then town with kak ain. It was a good day, and i felt good as i havent been going out to have fun for quite sometime alr. Fun day and a tiring one too. And i guess i shud stop buying clothes online. Pretty nice clothes, dress, shoes was on gss at town. But sadly, i am broke :(! But ystrday i was only on the look for shoes. Super gorgeous heels, sandals. Shall get it when i receive money.

And ive made up my mind to only work after my N. Ive been to the store, nice place. Oklah, malas nak type byk2. Gmbr after this :D!

i irrevocably love you.

2009-05-16T08:37:00.002+08:00

P.S. I'll wait, no matter how long it'll take.

u're gone, im gone.

2009-05-10T11:14:00.002+08:00

I give up! Im giving up alr. People do not take me seriously. Since im a joke, then so be it. U people only think abt how u feel, but me? Am i not a human too? Since u people wan it that way, then i wun say anything anymore. I'll let u take me as a joke. Dun be shock when smth happen, and i make sure, it wun be a joke to u people anymore. Thanks people((:! I wun be blogging anymore. Goodbye!

"I know that u will nvr take me as a joke. I miss u. Whut shud i do to make this go away? I nvr wanted u to leave me, will u be back? And u know that no matter whut, i wun hate u. I am afraid to say this, but i shud tell u again, in case u forgotten. I luv u, it nvr stop."

all went wrong.

2009-05-09T15:38:00.003+08:00

Wud u grant my wish if i wanted u to kill me rite now? I wish u wud. But not u leaving me. NEVER! But y? I dun mind my frens, family not taking me seriously, not thinking abt how i feel. But NOT u! Y wud i wan u to leave me when i know i'll be just fine wherever u are, knowing that u care for me. How will i face this now that u are leaving me for gd? I nvr want to lose u, again and again. U are the one who knows me best. I dun mind u teasing me, but pls dun leave me.

"I alwayZ prayed that u will be happy. Even if leaving me will make u happy, i will learn to let go. To make u happy, so that i wun be burden to u. I dun mind. I'll wait...."

B to the A to the C to the K!!!

2009-05-08T13:58:00.002+08:00

Yoooohooooo people :D! How have u all been? Meeeeeee? Im nooooooo goooooood):! I havent had any rest for this whole week. And i swear, my energy is all drained out. I keep falling asleep anywhere and everywhere. Ive been out almost everyday till late. On mon, school was as per-normal. And then had self-study in school till 6pm. It was fun bcoz my company was great. The food Mrs Ang ordered was awesomezxz :D! We had a fest before we start our revision. And only 6 including Mrs Ang stayed in school till 6pm for self-study. And smth happened when i was omw hm. Heheeehee. A guy came up to me and said that someone on the phone wana talk to me. And ofcoz i know the person on the phone. So then he asked me to leave my num and i gave him psl i knal dier. And i igt the one yg i bbual pat phone tu nak my num. So i bagi jelah. Then bile dah balek, dier msg. And the one messaging wasnt the one on the phone, it was the guy yg ckp ader org nak bbual dgn i. HAHHAHAHHA! And when i asked him asal tibe2 nak my num? And his ans was superrrrrrrcute gilerr mcm nak sepak trajang semue tao! Hehehhehee. Only my girls know wad he said hehe. And lagi dier tggl depan/seblah blk i je. Best tao :D! Nak teman blh ajak dier, kan best((:

So anw, tuesday wante to stay back for math atp and self study in school again, but grace wanted me to help her bake cookies(which turn out gross!!!) I like the one i bake at home better!!! Then stayed at her house till 6pm. Was feeling superrr tiredd omw home. And i slept only at ard 1am or 2am(i cant rmb). The next day, went home straight after schoooool :D! And had to study bcoz the next day had math and ss paper. Which was really terrible!!!! In my 15 and a half living, i have never, i repeat, NEVER fell aslp while going thru math work. But i did on that day bcoz i was really tired! And i had no mood so i gave up half way and read ss instead. Lucky whut i read came up for the paper((: And that guy who asked for my num, was superrr sweeeet like honey can? He lend me his maths and ss book. Smth like a notebook ah. Which help alot. Only that he gave it to me on the day i had my paper. Mcm mane nak igt semue kan? And he also gave me choc which made me smile while eating it =8D! A superr sweet and nice guy. I sukeee hehe.

And i had difficulties while doing math. Terrible! I am sure to fail. And u know whut? I fell aslp while doing ss paper. Its just my eye was in pain, so i closed my eyes and rested my head on the table, and boooooom. I feel aslp. Woke up, quickly write for ss. Teeeheheheee. Kesian kan i? Hahahhhaha. And today is geog and chem paper which was oso terrible! I can foresee myself getting @#$&@# shitty marks. Its alwayZ been like that anw. And i keep sleeping after doing my paper. Btol2 tak blh tahan seh! Dah ngantok aper nak buat. Lucky monday tak skola. Tapi tuesday ader math paper 2. Sigh! Ok lah. I nk siap ni. Nak kluar pegi blaja lah. Aboden?!?! Heheh tata titi tutu. Bengali luv u.

"I prayed again. I prayed that god will take everything from me, even u. I know that no matter whut, this day will come to an end. I know that sweet things will nvr last, with u ofcoz. I wun deny, but now its over. I wan all of this to go away. I will stop, im not yr sunshine anymore. Im just me, alone. I am used to being alone. I just wan u to have yr happiness. So pls, leave me. I will do the same. To say this again and again, i have alr woken up from te reality. Now, its just me, alone. Tc."

where do i belong?

2009-05-03T17:58:00.002+08:00

I had a terrible morning ystrday. I didnt stay at hm bcoz i dun belong here. I was glad kak ain and her monster would accompany me and i actually had to ruin her plan? Somehow. But i really had fun ystrday. Went out at 12pm and out till 10pm. Met her at jp and slack at Mc Cafe. Chilled till 1pm and we actually didnt had any plan. I actually just wanna get out from the house. But then we plan to chinese garden. Walked from jp and it was freaking hot hot heat. But fun ah :D! They both keep quarelling, and i kept laughing. But i felt guilty bcoz it seems that it has got to do with me that they fought. But they are olrite((:

Then, we slack at chinese garden. Played games and all. Didnt took any pichas bcoz ive seriously got no mooooood. By 4+pm we walked to chinese garden mrt station to rest and talk. Then last min plan to go her house to chill. Rented cds =8D! HAHHHHAHAH! Movie marathon was awesomezxzx! We're gonna do it again i swear! I had soooo mch fun. And ............. was sucha sweetie hehe. Im glad they made my day ystrday.

Wak yah was at hm. So the 3 of us watched the rented cds while munching. The 2 movie for funneH. Actually rented 3 but 1 of it was super obscene. HAHAHHA! I forgot the title of the cd. But both was actually funneH. Laugh non stop hit. Lagi2 one of the cd was hilarious bcoz diorg cubit punat diorg sendri. I meant the guys. HAHHAHHA! Then, asik ader gay jeeee. Hehehhe its ...... ((:

Went home took 502 home. Was super tireddd and ...... actually fell aslp and he didnt call me. I tried to slp but it started ti rain cat and anjing! Somore got thunder and lightning. I couldnt sleep. But thank god, ........ woke up and called me. He accompany me till 3am and we both went to sleep. But ..... was such an ass! Accompany me but keep teasing me. He said abt his so called, "sister" si PONTIA..... Aper lagi, seram sejuk lah i. Benci seh i! But hehe.

Anw, just came back from tuition. Today's funneH in both madrasah and tuition. Hahah yanty kene flu babi!!!! Symptom baru untok flu babi is they tend to act cute, say things like the advertisement, and blablabla. Tu lah symptom2 dier. And Aishah lagi bgs. Dier kene panggil prata. Cume kite kite je tau :DD! Haha syarafina tak dtg pegi jb! Abeh farah pesan chew gum. Haha i was laughing bcoz farah type this to syarafina, "hey babe. tolong." Then i say, tlg aper seh? Ckp lah, kite kirim beli chew gum. Then i and Aishah laugh bcoz i sang, "tlg kami. bantu kami." Hehe then farah terslh type, "kisim." Then we laughed again hehehhehe.

And tuition was funneH too. Me and Aliah kept laughing and bbual mrepek. Hahah sampai table roboh? hahah terpranjat seh i! Tros i hold Aliah hand, was shocked xD! Then, one of the guy from our class pon klakar. Kak nora praised him saying he look gd today. And he smile smile skali when he tw out the door, he terlanggar the door. Dah kembang sgt, sebab tu. Hahhahaha. I have awesomezxz friends =8D! And i am sooo glad.

Ok. Nxt week shall be a tiring week. Will be in school from morning to 6 in the afternoon for the whole week. It means gd bcoz i'll be out of this house. And ....... i having sauna. Make me jealous jeee. Tu je keje dier. Hahah ...... say nnt next time pegi same same. WOOOO :D! Klah nak tggu .... msg after sauna. Byeeeee!

I am not blaming anyone in the house. Bcoz i alr say i dun belong here. U say i attitude kan? Ok ah. I am now showing attitude. Dun blame me! I didnt plan to do this, but did u all even think before u say? Did u all think how i will feel? Y do i alwayZ have to think abt how u ppl feel but u wun do the same? Y?!?! I wud alwayZ give in. I wud alwayZ think before i say. I wud think if wad im gonna say will hurt u. But did u do the same?! Hu am i to u? Am i not yr daughter?! If i am nothing to u, then so be it! Dun bother abt me anymore. I DUN BELONG HERE! I shall leave when its time. Then u wun have to think abt me. I am nothing to u ppl in this house!

whut can i say more? :(

2009-05-02T08:59:00.002+08:00

My whole body is aching, real damn badly)): Even my butt, can u believe it? I cant sit properly, which hurt! I hate this. And i guess i'll be staying at home again today, alone. As parents will be sending lil sissy to here and there. Will be bored to death. Again, im not complaining. But ...... wun be accompanying me again. As we seem not to be in gd terms? Or have we alwayZ not been in gd terms? So yeah. That says it all.

"U are fnally back to yrself. My prayers have been answered again. No more, manja-ing and all. No more sms every hour. No more calls. No more laugh, no more joke. I know ive screwed everything up. But this will end sooner or later. I dun mind. And everytime i think abt it, my heart start having holes. It tend to get the better of me. But yet again, ive woken up to reality. I am glad. Thanks for being sucha sweetheart these past few day. I dun wish to stay. I feel like im not in the right place. Can i leave?"

does it alwayZ have to end like this?

2009-05-01T16:40:00.002+08:00

I am here alone at home right now. Didnt attend the family meeting as i am soooo not feeling well. And ive got no one to accompany me rite now bcoz, .... doesnt bother about me. I am alwayZ showing attitude, i dun mind alr. Like ive said, i am alwayZ alone no matter whut. So its seems ok now.

"Why do u say but show the otherwise? Am i really a pain? Its ok. To me, it alr end. I shall be alone, like ive said. No one care, its ok."

The girl next door.

2009-05-01T12:03:00.003+08:00

Ystrday was awesomezxzxz =8D! Last min plan with kak ain to labrador and hortpark which was really FUN! Its been quite a long time since i had fun like this. Pichas are soooooo many. Below this post is only from my camera. I havent get from kak ain's camera yet. So stay tune :D! I cant wait to get the pichas. Coolio hehhe.

Mt paper ystrday was, mrepek! I dun like, i dun like. Wo PUSSY han. The peribahasa i learn oso nvr come out. Shiat! Ok whutever. I was feeling real bored bcoz ......... was working. So no one accompanied me at home. I texted kak ain and she was freeeeee. So we plan to labrador park lo :D! Took 176 there and reached at 5 like that. And it was sucky bcoz we had to walk so far. Somemore v far, like going up the hill. CB! Hehe and the place there was really eeeerie! Not a single soul there, ok im joking. Maybe they're not humans, they're hantu pagi? Hahahhah oklah. whutver. But we still took some pichas there and it Then, it was still quite early. So we had a last min plan to hortpark :D!

It was really fun there with kak ain. And i still rmb going there with ash two =8D! So fun lah. Take alot of pichas. Play alot of games. Until muscle cramp)): We stayed from 6.30 till 7.40pm then took 97 to je. One word, awesomezxz! I really had fun there taking alot of pichas at diff kind of scenery. Its really a beautiful place! I oso like botanical garden!!! Hehs. Reached home, was having a headache. Bath, pray, eat, rest. Then talk with .............. and still cnnt slp. My migrane really suck big time. Then gastric oso. Eat medicine pon tk gune. Otak dier ah. Might as well terjun dari tingkat 200 pe. Mati skali. HAHHHA! (ignore me. im talking to myself)

Lucky today no sch. Can rest at home. But later going for meeting. Haha family meeting, shud i go or stay at home? My whole body aching, entah lah. Oh and i have to stop shopping online. I am seriously broke right now. Left 2 bux from my saving. Mcm chicken backside! But i am happy i got to buy anothe two items today. Mom is soooooo nice lah :D! hehe oklah i shall stop buying things online for sometime. But i wanna get new shoes/slips. Ahhh shutup! Byeeee lah. Have a fun weekend everyone =8D!

"I am alwayZ praying no matter whut. Praying while tears rolling down. I am not giving up. Its my joy to luv. Even if it means, letting go."

pichas from labrador and hortpark :D!

2009-05-01T11:02:00.014+08:00

To Labrador Park. (boriiiing!)

hello there bff :D! haha

kaki dier gatal kene gigit nyamok((:

To Hortpark =8D!

we had fun playing this game there. and now my whole leg cramp. its a gd exercise(: if i stay near there i everyday oso go there to exercise, kan best :D!

her bf. monster.

i was actually scared if the swing will break.

that brown thingy is my shorts ok!

the last time i went hortpark was with ash. but the light wasnt switch on. and ash was angry? hahah ash. are u reading this? lol.

zzzZzzZzz

2009-04-29T16:07:00.002+08:00

omigod! i am super tired rite now. my whole body is weak but here i am still able to blog here. i can fall aslp any minute now. actually ive got nothing to blog about, but i just feel like blogging. and since .... is working, no one is accompanying me lah. boring giler seh): duno y i feel sooo tired this few days. keep falling aslp everytime, everywhere. hahahhha then ystrday after eat went to pray and then rest jap skali tertdo. aderlah org tu igt i mkn tk stop2. hehehhe then now ....... working i am super bored lah! how i wish he nvr work and accompany me 24hrs non stop hit! hhahahha ok it wun come true. then ystrday dah terbgn from slp, walk to mom's room and was like mabok. hahhhahha then go back room he msg.

then after awhile fell aslp again. then today, paper was olrite. not too bad, not too bad. after paper, keep slping. wahh piang lei. like that become babi(oink oink) heheh. then went to jp with fiona na na to eat then went home. ok shall go and rest and wait for ...... msg later.

"Woke up feeling restless and felt like u gave up. Tears came rolling down abit. But im glad its ok. Still, i know this wun last. I'll cherish this moment."

not counted.

2009-04-28T18:35:00.002+08:00

Today was a rainy morning. And thanks to the rain, i and nas was drenched. Practically, i didnt wanna be late for schl and have to do CWO. So me and nas just walked in the rain. It was really soooooo cooool, not. Hahahhha then ah ma accompanied me go change uniform. Was really feeling cold lah aboden! And the dryer suck ballZ. I need to keep putting my hands under it and then died when im drying my hair. So i need to keep doing it again and again. Then me and ah ma skipped from singing and saying pledge. Damnzxz! Shud ave brought along a jacket atleast. I was super stubborn when mom ask me to bring along umbrella.

Ah serve u rite ah alina~ Pandai sgt kan. Amek kau. (eh aper ni bbual sendri?) Hahhahha sorry. When i was in class, took out my shoe and sock and let it dry. Then the guys keep teasing me say, "smelly lah!". L O L~ They the one smelly dun wan say ahhahah.

Then was really cold and was having a headache. So didnt go for maths atp. Had to miss it lah. Balek mandi, do this, that. That fell aslp while watching tv. Then here i am now. I shall go and rest now. Feeling really tired this few days. And tmr is eng exam. FOOOOOOOOO! Powerhouse siolxxzxzx! Bsok exam maseh blh relax eh. Nak relax pat kubor ah. hahahha (ok talkingto myself again) Aiyoyoyoyoyo~

Ohhhh and my irritzxz ex is super irrit ah! Keep wanting me back. Mcm shit! LOL! Go live yr life ah. I live mine happily! I now v v v happy bcoz msging with ...... ((:

pichas from west coast mac with kak ain.

2009-04-28T18:29:00.003+08:00

Overdue pichas.

one word: shagged.

2009-04-27T18:21:00.002+08:00

Ok how was yr weekends? Mine was great :D! Ok practically i dumped my girls on sat and stayed at home alone when parents had to send sister to here, there, everywhere. And so being the nicest girl, i accompanied .... and he accompanied me((:

Get well soon ok! Must tc! Hehe. And on sun, went to madrasah in the morning and my girls are the best. It was full force bcoz 5 of us including me came on that day. How i wish there's still aqilah and dianna. Ok anw, we teased ustaz with, "ok and so". He keep repeating it every sec ok! V funneH and he knew it all along. Then had to rush to tuition. My brain wasnt functioning too well. Was really sleepy lah! Nearly fell asleep. Haha and i told mom i have the coolest friend there. Hehe. Then went to eat at mac after tuition. Ate alot ah. Nanti gemok sehh)):! After that went home and slept early.

Today, Mrs Ang came back after her long break. Her lesson was 3 periods and all 3 was chem. She teached all the way without stopping. And being a hard working girl, i wrote down every single thing she say/write on the test paper. Nearly no space to write. But i was awake only for the 2 lessons and the other lesson kept yawning and eyes full with tears. But mostly, after that lesson was all slack. Thank god :D! But tmr confirm die alr lo. Revision for mid-year exam alr! Hahah and the funny thing happened today was, the boys today played with nipples! Haha ofcoz they play among themselves lah. Takkan lah main with the girl's one kan kan kan~ hehehehhe willy and chong han kept teasing me. And i keep saying cb to willy which meant chio bu((:

And i had no mood today bcoz i was feeling tired and oso the boys keep coming to me and touch touch my phone. No mooooood~

After sch still need to go for detention which was totally boredddddd ah! Lucky there was diniy, prabu and shaun to accompany me. Did nothing there actually. Only talk, play tick-tack-toe and hang man. Then released at 4.30pm. Ohhh and thx to nas for sending me to sch today eventho he was suspended! hehhe :D!

Ok calobeteh. Am sooooo tired and sleepy. Shall rest and wait for ....... to sms/call me((:

"I seem to not care anymore for u. Its yr choice now. From now onward, i wun care that much. But i'll still care bcoz u are still considered my fren((:"

whut a day.

2009-04-25T12:37:00.002+08:00

Here i am eating ice cream, time checked: 12.37pm. Yum~ Hehehe whut are u all doing?

School was really awesomezxz ystrday! I was late for school and i feel v v v bad bcoz i dragged nasri along! DM was pissed off with the girl's going in the boy's toilet. And since i was late for 3 times already, i had to go for detention on monday. And unfortunately, nasri was already late for 6 times. So he was suspended)): Mcm mane ni nak pegi skola hari hari same2?

So anw, me an ah ma keep on disturbing each other, teasing each other. And ilham and willy keep on teasing me. And grace is a siao char bo. School was just so great :DD!

Then, plan to labrador park with kak ain was canceled bcoz i was feeling tireddd and i still had to finish up my fnn. So she said lets go west coast. I was like, okie. Brought along lappy and off to mac. And i cant believe with my own eyes hu i saw otw to meet kak ain. HAHAHHHAHA! Super shy ah. *red like tomato* hehhehhe

And i cant believe we both used too much of our brain cells to think for my fnn work. I was gonna cry and i was totally blank. But im glad its done with kak ain's help =8D! hehehe yr the best! Was in mac from 5 till 8. Then took some fresh air outside and snap some cute pichas. Will upload when i get them from kak ain. Hahahha and the funniest part was when me and kak ain talking stupid stuffs while waiting for the bus. Basically she started singing some song and i tried to be funneH. AHHHH! And then mula lah kite punye mrepek. Non stop hit siolzxzx! teeheheehee eh kak, MCD =8D!

Ok, i'll be staying at home today. And i had to dumped my girls, sorry fana, frans and ika. I takotlah nak tgk kude kepang! Klau kude race blh ah! *eh berdose lah* hahahhahha next time kite kluar same2 k? I pnat nari, otak need rest. Hehehhe have fun girls. Luv ya =8D!

"I dont know whuts happening to my girls. But i luv u all no matter whut happens. Im not siding anyone. And whutever u all choose in the future, i will alwayZ be with u all. Phyically or mentally. And i dun mind, if i am alwayZ alone."

little princess((:

2009-04-23T20:08:00.002+08:00

I had fun today, half of it only. Firstly, bff made my day by keep teasing me during ss lesson. He keep calling me, pantat lah, donald duck lah just bcoz i called him short, and not hot bcoz he wans to shave botak. Haha and he so manja. Sroh urot tangan dier lah, bbual dgn dier lah. Mcm nak rembs je. Hahaha but noo! I cant, bcoz his gonna be the 2nd last hu im going to luv most! Hehe Other than that, i had fun being a spy with fiona na na! Hahahhha and we kept gossiping which was really fun!!! But seriously, i had fun for both of that. Ohhhhhh and also. I keep saying ah ma, "pussy", hehe then grace saying no prawn lol! They made my day. And tmr's friday! Im going to have fun with kak ain :DDD!

"U dun have to care abt my feelings, but pls think abt others. I dun need u to think abt how i feel, bcoz its no use anymore. I have enough of these, u. I am not siding anyone, u know that. But i dun care anymore. If u wanna be like this, then suit u. I wun force u, i know u dun like. But wud u consider the past few years we have been together for? No, then its ok. Take care! Im tired to feel abt others. I give up!"

do u mean it?

2009-04-22T15:43:00.003+08:00

"It is just a dream all along? U havent said that word for a long time and unless its necessary. But whut did u say that for? Which part? Isit yrs, or mine, or both? I never expect that u wud say that. But afterall, u already woke me up from the reality. Still, there's only me. I do not wan anything to happen to u, atleast not abit. Pls."

"Can i still continue dreaming and live in that beautiful castle? Nay, i cant."

does it matter?

2009-04-22T08:52:00.002+08:00

Time checked: 8.53am
Does it matter now that the pain comes back? Y do i have to be so sick and weak? Y cant i seem to do things the right way? Y cant i just stand up on my own? WHY!?!? As long that im alone, everything doesnt matter anymore.

"All those things u said didnt make sense. Those were ridiculous. U know that people care for u more than i do. It wasnt about me, it was about u. When i said i dun mind, people dun care about me, i really mean it. There's never been anyone hu care. And this is the best way. Its time for me to wake up from reality. I know this will come sooner or later, im used to this. Bcoz all doesnt seem to matter anymore. Im sure u didnt wanna put more hope on me. I know u have enough of these. Alright, i'll stop. U have a future ahead of u. Tc of yrself, pls. Goodbye."

new moon((:

2009-04-21T13:24:00.003+08:00

The only happy thing that made me laugh today is,
"I'm trying to keep my promise!" I blinked my wet blurry eyes, suddenly sure that I was dreaming. "When did you ever promise to kill yourself falling out of Charlie's tree?"

It really made my morning brighter :DD! And havent been going to school since last wed till today. I really am the last one behind class. Encouraging words wun make me start looking through my books! I hate it! Im not strong enough for every single thing!

"Now i felt that i am not important, to everyone and even u. I have never been important in my whole life. Its just me, alone."

whut!?!?!

2009-04-20T12:12:00.003+08:00

I duno which part of me is hurt. Isit mentally or physically or both? No idea.

"Maybe ive think too much. And ive doubt u for nothing sometimes which is my fault. Whut im tryna say is basically, i misssss yooooou!"

(edited)

"its nothing, but u. all im thinking abt is u. i am slowly realizing so much from reality."

its bleedingg

2009-04-19T20:20:00.003+08:00

Yeeaps, thats my thumb up there. My thumb hurts): It bleeds when i was getting ready to go for my class. And i swear it was all so fast, i didnt know wad actually happened. Only that when i was tryna button my pants, and there, it happened all so fast. It is painful, how can i be so careless?!?! Anw, other than that, class today was awesomezxzx! Both for madrasah and tuition. Met my girls in class, and am glad that ustaz was later than me(: *kening jogek*

Was laughing with my girls when i was actually feeling down. I cudnt resist but to laugh whenever im at madrasah, they'll make me laugh, somehow :DD! And tuition class today was awesomezxz twoooo! Haha am glad i made a new cool friend there =8D! Hehe.

"I dun wanna be fake. But i was hoping i could wake u up. I guess someone had beaten me before i cud do it. Maybe im just not meant to be. But i really have woken up to reality. And now, everything is gonna start, a real me, i suppose."

Feeling so tired from the real reality. I shud go sleep now, am v v v v tired. No school tmr, i'll be back soon. I'll have to concentrate from now on, on my own.

my feelingsss, ni ming bai mah?

2009-04-18T19:47:00.002+08:00

"I feel that i shud stop doing things which is going to please others. I think its time for me to stand on my own and do things which wun please u. Even when i try pleasing u, it feels like im being yr dog. I remember u saying that. But how about when i dun please u? U will not care. So wad do u actually wan me to do? I am willing to give in, im not calculative u know. Ill go with the flow. And i am not complaining here. I just wanna know, y do i care? U yrself dun care abt me. And here i am, alwayZ having wild thoughts of u. So here i am, anouncing that i will do things that wun please any of u anymore. But i have not been pretending all this time. I am purely, and with open heart, been willing to sacrifice myself for allthe hurt all this while. I just wanna see, do u even care for me, atleast? And ive wake up to reality. I am facing them right now(: But i still care for u. Sooner or later, ill be gone."

am i a burden?

2009-04-16T20:38:00.003+08:00

Shud i be happy that i got 1 week mc for next week, anot?
Anw, there's no school tmr. Will be resting at home other than going to the lib. Anyone wann accompany me? Sms k? :D!

Feeling tired rite now. I hope i wun fall aslp later while watching documentary at okto. Bcoz i fell aslp last week while watching and woke up right after the show just end. How great!

Ok da da~

(edited)

Why do i feel that im a burden? wo zhen de bu kai xin):

those wordsss.

2009-04-16T12:33:00.002+08:00

Time checked: 12.34pm
Okey, this time i got reason y i nvr go school. Until miss olivia called and asked y am i not in school again. I really dun wana skip school anymore but this time the pain just have to come! Mom say later go tell the doctor myself. Confirm doctor cakap, "i dun wan to keep seeing u, u know." Hahahahhha shiat.

"when u're unhappy or wadsoever, i tend to feel it. y do it hurt so much knowing how u feel? but wad can i do? i tried to cheer u up, but i'd alwayZ fail. Making u smile a little bit, is that so hard for me? sometimes i wonder, do u/ppl wan me here at all? all i wana do is cheer u up when u're down, but... IVE FAILED :D!"

2009-04-15T14:19:00.002+08:00

I didnt go to school, yet again. My attendance this year is getting from bad to worst! I shud stop being absent from school manxzxzx. So anyway, it was raining just now. Had some rest and now here i am. Feeling bored. Watched anime and chinese show online. But i am feeeling real bored now. Lucky bb nvr work today but i guess his still sleeping. So i'll just have to entertain myself all the way till laterrrrrrr.

I am still bu kai xin =8(! Duno y. Ok byeee!

random picturessss.

2009-04-15T13:58:00.004+08:00

Random picturessssss.

HAHAHHAHAHHAH

wan some?

muahahahahaha

yeaaah yeahhh!

mcm pernah nmpk, tapi pat mane eh? lol

hahhha this is super cute!!!!!!

going bonkers alr? o_O

pussy cat.

2009-04-14T17:31:00.004+08:00

I am feeling tired but i cant sleep, eventho i havent try closing my eyes yet. Someone pissed me off in school today. And for talking about my "dead aunty" when i didnt even disturb u! And bcoz of yr stup race, my aunty is dead! U understand mamak?!?! And u still dare to talk about my aunty eating the rojak! I should have go to u and bash u! So unreasonable pundek! And i didnt have the very best mood with me today. I am feeling lethagic. I wish life wouldnt be this boring. But i am v v v glad that i have my babygs no matter wad eventho they are pain in the breast teeheeheeee :D!

And today i read Reader Digest. I wanna go around the world to Pan Pacific Whistler Mountainside, Australia, New South Wales, Sydney, Bondi beach, Taiwan, Taipei, Pan Pacific Yokohama,Parrot Cay, Madiat Jameirah's Mina, Vegas, Alaska, Skagway,New York, Walt disney world. And ecetra ecetra. But maybe it wont come true as the world is soo coming to an end. This world is already old and if u have read Newpaper about the solar wind that is gonna hit Earth in 2012 then u'll know. Im feeling scared and at the same time all i have to do is pray.

I shall stop here with this "joke" which i read in the Reader Digest,
"I was driving around and around a parking garage in search of available space. Nothing. Then i noticed a couple walking ahead of m. "Going out?" I called to them. "No," said the man. "Just friends.""

If u dun understand then u wun find it funneH. And if u dun find it funneH, u wun laugh. And it means yr just plain stup hehe :D!

Time check: 5.50pm
I am waiting for 10 plus but it seems forever.

(edited)

wo bu kai xin):

B O R E D!

2009-04-13T16:27:00.003+08:00

my gorgeous sis =8D!

haha kak dun be angry if u see this. u know no matter wad u are a pretty and gorgeous person and i will alwayZ luv ya!

whut are u all doing right now? i am suppose to finish up my fnn coursework and study for tmr's test): but i am laSy to do so. today, there is no power force for the Fantabulous 4 bcoz bbyg ika didnt turn up for schl. but schl was olrite(: i wanna get monroe piercing which is like super cool? haha and i shud get it! after Ns, yessssssssssssssssss. after N level :D!

ystrday tuition class was awesome. ok maybe so so hehe. i am so sad bcoz i wun be going to CATZ on wednesday): i feel like going but at the same time i dun. and prolly no one will entertain me that night bcoz bb is working. i shud just stay at home. and there is no school on friday bcoz there's commendation day. another hol for us =8D! hoooray! ok calobeteh.

pichas from shesha =8D!

2009-04-12T11:18:00.003+08:00

11th april 2009

pichas not in order!

those two kitty is super cute! they have ultra eyes=8D!
Haz friends say he dont look like police but like ah beng lol!
Wan, another policeman who doesnt look like one also! haha

shesha-ed :D!

2009-04-12T10:45:00.004+08:00

i hate it when my nose will itch and then i will sneeze! and my throat hurt): ystrday was awesomezxzxzz! shud have shesha session again some time :D!

btw i didnt get to thank haz and his fren, Wan. so sweet of the abang2 police to pay for it. shesha-ed from 6.30 like that till 9.30pm. haha i sure did had fun with them. laughing and all. but my flu was bugging me! reached home at 11pm.

will be going tuition later. feeling "laSy" alr. toddles.

sum up.

2009-04-11T10:22:00.004+08:00

fever + flu + sore throat = sick!

so pratically today's saturday. ystrday was good friday but me and babyg ika had early hols. skipped school of thursday and went to babyg's new crib with wawan and ayim bear. then went to clem stadium to surprise ika's mom with a birthday cake. then went back to her crib and slack till 2pm. did craSy things while the boys slept. then off homed.

ystrday had kenduri. it was plain slacking again other than reading some prayers, and eating good food :D! haha i find kids v v cute and irrit! hehe but wad to do, maseh babies. so then went home and then nurul my cuz called me down. she said my primary school friend wanna meet me. butt it was my sec schoolmate. chilled for awhile and then homed.

and Wan keep on saying im like, "alep." practically bcoz we're both abang and adek angkat. muahahhahha but his worst =pp

and today, will be going out with babyg ika and her bf and his friends to shesha. tata.

2009-04-07T18:15:00.003+08:00

just got back from my aunt's funeral. im feeling like shiat rite now. hais. and u know wad?!?! i am soooooo hating ol the mamak elek! mcm pukzxz ah!

and i was furious looking at ol the reporters taking pichaZ! mcm fun fare pe amek gmbr! bdh!

still feeling sad =8(!

6th of april: wak minah passed away.

2009-04-06T16:57:00.002+08:00

tears keep falling right after i received msg from kak ain that my aunt had alr passed away. to feel that her family will really be sad right now makes me cry. but all we could do is to pray that her spirit will rest in peace. almost all my friends knew abt the fod poisoning and knowing abt my aunt, they tried to cheer me up. thx everyone. lagi lagi boy "cute", and syarul that keep making me laugh in ss and geog lesson non stop hit. arif talking cock and ilham for helping me to do my ss work :D! ya'll the best and oso all my babygs. thx so much!

at the same time, i am really pissed off with that shop's owner. that stupzx mamak! ahhhhhhhhhhh! i wish i cud kill u if i wud alr get surat hijau. and my friends keep telling me to saman them. i'll go for now. tmr's the funeral. and i told bb that, i glad allah took her away so that she wun suffer so much anymore. i would alwayZ pray for her roh to rest in peace. amin.

shagged!

2009-04-05T21:01:00.003+08:00

my energy for this weekend was drain out. as ive been out for sat and today. as i said for the previous post, abt my aunt. did u read the newspaper abt the rojak thingy? stup sia the person! and bcoz of that, my aunt is the only woman in coma. she is critically ill and i nearly in tears looking at her condition. i just had the urge to cry but wad can i do? i was worried eventho im not that close to her. and my uncle is also being hospitalized but his alrite. i pray that both of them get well.

and then at night, went to nyai house. so fun :D! as usual hehehehhe talk cock with my cuz. reached home was already shagged. then had to wake up early today to go madrasah. i was late again but tk kene punish, ustaz give chance but next week no no. haha! then had to rush home and had to go for so called a tuition thing. i had fun as i meet new friends and we had some activities which was out of the box hehhehe. then went to buy my phone. im really a fickle minded, now i alr have it and i dun feel like using it. blablabla. wanted to go hospital and see wak minah but no time. i hope she wake up soon. amin.

so shagged now. shud go and slp alr. not feeling well again. yawn~

time check 8:19am. goooooood morning earthlings :D!

2009-04-04T08:19:00.003+08:00

its 8:20am rite now. and a goooood morning to u earthlings there :D! yestrday was great! hahahha. the sun was hot hot heat. i wudnt wan to sun tan, not. ok anw, sorry for alwayZ being late my dear kak ain hehe! u know i dun mean to be late. but deeep deeeep inside i luv you =8D!
teeeehheeheheee.

anddd i wud wan the pichas pls :D! arigato. sum up = i was tired at the end of the day.
ohhhh yah, kak did u heard abt the wak mina or somehow the name shud pronounce like that. she's in icu kan? i pray that she will be alright.

ok. pichas will post ltr when i get back from hospital + nyai house. bye byeeeeeeeee!

damnxzxzxz

2009-04-03T09:37:00.004+08:00

time check is 9.37am! and obviously im not in schl right now. the pain came back and it was really uncomfortable. i know the doctor wudnt wan me to keep coming back for appointment. but the pain just keep coming back. and its like an everyday thing for me alr. and then, the doctor will prescribe tablets for me. then eating medicine day and night is also like a routine. ofcoz i wudnt wan to be in this state! and i wudnt wan mom to worry so much although she doesnt show me, she's a calm person in the outside but we wudnt know it in the inside. and to me, my mom is a role model. she's a strong person with or without friends. she dont take critism from people or even her own blood eventhou she had done alot of good deeds for them. and it really hurt me to see or hear wad they have to say abt my mom. and i wud even tell mom, "y do u have to help them even when they say things abt u?" and she will say, "wad we do for them, we're not asking them to repay us. allah will do so." and my heart will crush. and there i know im from her kin because wadever i do for people i wudnt ask them to repay me. i am v v v glad to do so with open arms and heart.

haha tears nearly flood my eyes. its just heartache for me. sigh! no matter wad, i luv my mom and dad and sis and all of u. will be going out at 11 to sentosa with dearest cuz. back ltr :D!

not my bff!

2009-04-02T15:57:00.003+08:00

I am so mad at my bff! Tak tau plak dier the type yg nak "attention!" Lagi lagi aku dah panic tkt aper aper terjadi pat dier. Tapi dpt tau it was all an act! I freaking dun understand y did he have to act stupid infront of ppl and teacher. Mcm tk make sense at all. His like my bff ah abeh prangai nak mcm gitu. Ok people must be wondering y am i so mad at syarul. Its like, do u like people telling u yr bf or gf or bestf or babyg or babyb that they are an "attention seeker". Obviously not rite? Or smth like, org ckp matair kau tk handsome ke tk lawa ke. U suke? Obviously not kan?!?!! That is y i am so pissed off with my bff rite now. And lagi lagi dier ckp, "syarul main main je lah tadi." Aku dah tkt aper aper terjadi pat dier. And there he was telling me his just playing! Eh klau nak april fool pon smlm lah eh! Nari dah tkde, dah baci ah bodoooh! And klau dier main main pon sampai DM and principle datang naik class just to check on u!

Bff pls think lah! How can i not be mad at u?!?! Maybe wad people say is true, u're just an attention seeker kan? How could i even regard u as my bff? Omigod! U are so damn stup manxzxz! if u were to read this, u wud understand how i feel as yr bff. No way can people call my bff an attention seeker and its really true afterall. And i would like to tell u that, im not the kind of girl hu wud anyhow be angry with her bff without a reason! So u shud reflect it yrself! Ah mcm bodoh ah u!

happy 1st april fools day :D!

2009-04-01T20:39:00.004+08:00

(the moon was beautifool ystrday. the moon was sunny.)

Today is april fools day!!!! Haha best giler kacau org yang tk berslh hehe. Firstly i didnt go to schl today bcoz there's a workshop thingy which is super duper boring i tell u. So slept till 9am. Babyg ika called and she was the first to fool me haha! Cute giler ah kau b :D!

Then i had the urge to fool other people. It was hairul and nasri first. I just had to tell them i had gastric and doctor said it was serious and bla bla bla. Hairul replied and was, "smpai ble kak pat sane aniwaes hospital ane?" then i was like, "adek happy april fools day :D!". Then nas replied, "mcm mane blh kene gastric!" then i was like, "nas syg, happy april fools day!" then he was like, "aku ade pakai duit mkn aku untok top up ingatkan btol2.." then i felt so bad lah! Sorry nas, aku tau kau risau haha! Sweet lah dier sanggop top up untok aku. Hehe then i texted kak ain, and mom. Ohhh the most i like was dad! I was like, "ayah washing machine rosak. Air kluar dari washing machine. Skrg dapur flood." Then he called, "huh? asal?" Me, "happy april fools day!" him, "kuang asam!". Hahahhaha cute! then the last person was abang hakim but failed. But still his reply was funny! Me, "abg aku tertendang fish tank kau yg keck tu. Abeh jatoh, carpet semue basah. Aku tkt nk angkat ikan kau." then he was like, "hahahahah.april fool.wakakakak" i was like, "babi lu. tau je." then he said, "hahahha.mesti la aku tau.fishtank aku yg pat bwh kau tendang aki kau yg sakit.haha." LOL!

Today was fun! hehe im so tired now. Schl tmr, *yawn* Ok calobeteh!

night study in schl

2009-04-01T12:41:00.004+08:00

Zaman batu :D!

first try of jumpshot: failed badly second try: atleast better. but shaun keep failing lol. maybe being too tall is not a good thing haha!
last try: awesomezxzx :D! shaun like gorilla like that hehe

pichas from botanical garden with kak ain :D!

2009-04-01T12:02:00.006+08:00

A beautifool Friday :D!

we stopped one stop to reach botanical garden. then we had to walk heh

this was super funneH bcoz i nearly wanted to fall and kak ain's reaction super hilarious :D!

i like that place best bcoz its like autumn there!

i luv her bcoz she' beautiful, really!
a photographer helped us to snap this and i didnt know wad was i doing hahahha

there she's really damn beautiful! luv u :D!

lovely ice Scream on a lovely hot day =8D!

buttocks up instead of buttoms up(does it even make sense?) lol

Peek-A-Boob teeheheeheee

she freaking fell behind me! tu lah, kancong lagi ah =pp

she say she luv this

i likey this

lovely! i wish to be like that

ok here's a kiss from me to u, goodbye :D!

nothing.

2009-03-31T21:26:00.006+08:00

Marley & me is an awesomexzxz movie! V v v touching and it made me in tears. Haha but i hate it that the dog, Marley is v v v active and naughty. Its really huge and i cant imagine myself taking it for a walk. It will take me for a walk instead hahhaha. But really a good show! Must watch! Must watch! Rate 5/5 :D! Damn good show!

And also bride wars is a nice movie. Obviously its about friendship and love and dot dot dot. Hehe its also a good show and really an awesome one! Should watch! Ohh yah, i also watched coming soon which made my heart nearly jump out! I just didnt like the part when the ghost suddenly came out of no where. I didnt understand y did it also have to come out of no where. Stupid show! Bcoz it scares a hell lot of me! And when i was reaching hm at 11pm, i rmbed the part where the ghost was in the lift. I was like, omigod! I just had to take the lift. I know its stupid. I was just scared! hehe

Still, i will rate both this movie 4/5! Nice!

Today's math paper was, atrocious! I didnt rmb any on the sec 1 and 2 work. Terok giler. Byk q tk buat. And my mt oral was, mcm ching chong ching chong. Melayu entah hilang ke mane. Tibe tibe muscular semue kluar teeheheehee. Then pegi tgk fiona na na perform syf. She was beautifool :D! Luv her!

And b, think before u do anything ok? I luv u! And cheer up. No matter wad, u know u luv him and that he luv u. And u know that i luv u two :D!

just a note.

2009-03-30T21:20:00.004+08:00

"if my heart were to be made up of sweet or candy, i would eat it up and not live when it hurts so much."

But unfortunately, i cant do that. And i promise that i wont do stupid things, not again. I dont know if i am starting to realized, but i think i should learn to treasure the one i have right now. I do not want to keep losing one after another. And ofcoz i am still sad that i could not treasure bb right from the start. But like ive said, i am going to learn to treasure the one i love now. And i also realized that i do not have the right to go back to bb. Eventho if i were given the chance. I do not want to go back to my last time self. I want to fall and stand up again, on my own. I now choose to treasure the one i have now and when i am fully ready and know that im a change person, i would want to retrieve back the one that i lose. But i know it is not for me to choose. But will i be given a chance again, bb? I dont know if u're reading this, but if u are, i would need to know. Would u give me another chance to retrieve and treasure u? I know i dont have the right to make decision like this. Dui bu qi. But i know that bb will give me another chance. Give any sign that u would let me treasure u again when i am fully ready and a change person. Pls, bb?

Ok, shall stop here. Today's test for horrigible! Cant think, cant feel but i sense there was someone. Oh well~ I just dont know whuts real and whuts not anymore. I thot i saw bb again and again. Sigh! And tmr there's math paper and mt oral. Sayonara~

from me, to you.

2009-03-28T18:30:00.001+08:00

"Disappointment from a person you love is easily one of the worst things to go through. It’s forgivable when you care, and you can move on. When it repeatedly happens, a breaking point is reachable. It hits you, and there is no going back from it. No amount of apology brings it back to being okay.
Sometimes you’re not mad at the person at all.
Sometimes, you’re just done."
Copied from: gotmesaying.lj

After reading that, i now then understand and feel that bb is really done with me. And its for real this time. It has alwayZ been like this for the past few years. And its me to blame. I just wont change when bb is still there for me. Maybe, this is for the best? I never wanted to imagine losing bb again. And yes, it happened. You can say im stupid.
And i feel that i wun grow up now or later on bcoz i am alwayZ being pampered here and there. Im alwayZ having my love ones and alwayZ clinging on to them. I really duno wad to do now.

Goodbye? Is anyone willing to accompany me thru my life?

bb

2009-03-27T21:42:00.003+08:00

i needa break, yet again~ sighsighsigh! im super shagged now. but i really had fun today with my dearest kak ain. eventhou it was a last min plan, it was still awesomezxzxz exploring botanical garden and taking a lot of pichas with her. i had a great time. and i wish, i would have great times like that everyday.

i shall stop here and head to bed now. this blog will be gone by tmr or so :D!
calobeteh?!?!

P.S. i cant seem to forget u, bb. its been twice that i have been dreaming of u. i guess, i realy missed u. but, .........

no more.

2009-03-21T14:43:00.006+08:00

sorry, but wadever im typing here is expressing my feelings to someone. bcoz i really cant get myself to tell that someone how i feel.

"it felt just like yesterday i was talking to u, i was laughing with u, i last met u. but it will never happen again after this. im sorry if i cant be the fun girl who u contact with for the past few years. i know i never was fun to be with, im not pretty as the other girls u know. no more sorries. i'll stop here. i wish u all the best no matter wad. take care pls, i luv u. gdbye."

p.s. Let this be my las word that i trust thy luv.

(edited)

Im not sure the things im gonna type right now is gonna make any sense. But i guess for the 15 years i live, and there's many more years ahead of me. I see that some people do not really treasure wad thy have, especially or i can say including me. And for the others too. To see that they are only thankful to the people that have done/help or anything that pleases them, only for a second, or so. And then, the someone who have helped/done anything for he/she or u would then forget the good deed that the person have did for u. But for me, its not easy for me to forget things that my beloved friends/family had done for me, or helped me in any way. And eventhou i am forgotten for the good deeds that i have done for some of u(anyone in particular), it just saddens me sometimes but ofcoz i wun do things like revenge or anything. I just feel the need to thank mostly babyg ika for alwayZ being there for me(ok wait, maybe not all the time). But still for the fun times, unhappy times, and so on. Ok b, i dun make any sense here. Oh well, i alwayZ dun make any sense and i know people will never appreciate me for the good deeds ive done.

Well, i dun wanna list the people who i wanna thank them here. But mostly, bb. Thx for telling me things that basically made sense eventhou those things u said sometimes hurt me. Yes, u are everything. Thx for the 5 years friendship that u had to tolerate with me, for everything. Thx bb. I wont forget u, eventhou u wud.

I just hope that my beloved friends wont forget the good things/happy moment we spent together eventhou we oso have bad and sad moments together. I feel that its best if i'll just vanish from this internet world. I dun deserve new friends. I'll stop here. Gdbye people.

you're a little late and im alr torn.

2009-03-20T21:11:00.004+08:00

i am so pissed off right now, seeing and not understanding wad u really wan actually! u made me suffer too much alr! and i cant stand it anymore! u suck big time! u are the last and the worst ive known! i'll stop thinking of u! LOSER!

P.S. bb u are still the best although im the worst):
i know we wun be back tgt. im sorry.

when nurse day :D!

2009-03-18T16:57:00.002+08:00

today is sucha beautifOOl day. and initial plan was to the beach with my dearest kak ain. but last min plan cancel. she was injured or wadsoever. and till now have not yet reply my msg! and obviously she have to make it up to her dearest lil cuz here, who is feeling so boreddd right now.

and then, wanted to go to the lib with babyg ika. but she was laSy. so we drop the idea. and we both good girls are at home now. i duno wad she's doing now, but i know i am feel bored plus sleepy right now. wad a waste. it'll be fun to be out at sentosa right now. oh well, oh well. its ok.

anw, ystrday had night study at west coast mac with mrs ang and classmates. it was super fun :D! bcoz i guess we were the loudest group. laughing and taking pichas, blablabla. it was super fun! but i still did some chem question though.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! i super glad with my term 1 result!!!!! it is really unexpected with my combine chem and physic getting A1? haahhaha im really glad though! so i guess my parents shud give me a gift? or smth? haha pratically i just wanna change my phone to touch screen phone and maybe get a new number?

off to, doing nthg. i still miss bb!

p.s. i'll go with the flow. just me and u.

night study at west coast mac :D!

2009-03-18T16:45:00.004+08:00

17th mar 09

off to west coast mac for night study(:!

my babygs :D!

ernest is cute, but he act cute all the time. teeheee! i luv ya!

shagged!

darling =8D!

omigod! omigod! omigod! hee

out with babyg and shaun on monday.

2009-03-18T16:29:00.006+08:00

16th mar 09

p.s. sorry for the first few pichas of my faces. blame on babyg ika for taking so long to get ready. hahah!

she's in luv with ljs.

off to? wait, i forgot!

oh yah. vivo.

harbourfront's mac to wait for shauny horny(:

tireddddd!

babyg ika's sweet sixteen at arandan country club.

2009-03-18T16:00:00.006+08:00

somewhere in feb

they luv to bully me. and i luv them except for, (blank)

nak act candid. pegi dahhh heh

oh yah. i miss hairul, whose behind me!!

wanna go wild wild wet someday?

sebok je mat mat pat blakang tu.

maintain je ah kau gitu mcm. haha

ni tk abes2, "aravind"

hairul muke mendak heh

i luv my babyb =8D!

muahhahahha

cant blame. his just super tall, or am i just short?

luv!!!

i luv my babygs :D!

lets go, fiona na na na =8D!

babyg and wawan's birthday cake. Banana cake!!!!!

i luv both of them :D!

family(:!

back homeeee

im finally back :D!

2009-03-18T13:58:00.003+08:00

omigod omigod omigod!!!! im finally back, and i miss blogging!!!
haha anyway, shud i or shud i not change my link?

i cant make up my mind. btw, tag me if i have not link u yet ok baby?
will blog a lot of pichas later :D!
now, timeeee for anime! teeehheeee.