But unfortunately, i cant do that. And i promise that i wont do stupid things, not again. I dont know if i am starting to realized, but i think i should learn to treasure the one i have right now. I do not want to keep losing one after another. And ofcoz i am still sad that i could not treasure bb right from the start. But like ive said, i am going to learn to treasure the one i love now. And i also realized that i do not have the right to go back to bb. Eventho if i were given the chance. I do not want to go back to my last time self. I want to fall and stand up again, on my own. I now choose to treasure the one i have now and when i am fully ready and know that im a change person, i would want to retrieve back the one that i lose. But i know it is not for me to choose. But will i be given a chance again, bb? I dont know if u're reading this, but if u are, i would need to know. Would u give me another chance to retrieve and treasure u? I know i dont have the right to make decision like this. Dui bu qi. But i know that bb will give me another chance. Give any sign that u would let me treasure u again when i am fully ready and a change person. Pls, bb?

Ok, shall stop here. Today's test for horrigible! Cant think, cant feel but i sense there was someone. Oh well~ I just dont know whuts real and whuts not anymore. I thot i saw bb again and again. Sigh! And tmr there's math paper and mt oral. Sayonara~