Beat That.

Usually when i miss you, i can tell you straight but this time i couldnt get myself to say how much i miss you. I dont have the guts to tell you. i feel that you're far from me. v far. i know we've alwayZ been far from each other. but how far you are, i still feel that you are near me. but this time, i feel that you are v far. i feel that we're further from each other. i wish we could stay like we are forever but i know we cant and i think this is the starting of how im feeling right now. i wish i can tell you everything, about how i feel. how sad i am. but i know you wont understand how i feel. im sorry if i have to lie to you. but i cant get myself to tell you how i feel when i rejected them. i dont wanna say i rejected them becoz of you, but i just love you. i'll be strong.
~~i hate you. i dont want you. i never miss you. i dont want you to understand me. i want you to leave me.~~ with ~~love~~, A.